A Prayer

Almighty God,

My friend Wendy has just been told that she has a tumor the size of a soccer ball on her right ovary. She's 28, and she's never been married. She'd like to get married one day and have kids. But she's got this tumor, and on Monday a team of surgeons is going to cut her open and remove the tumor, and if it's cancerous, they're going to remove her entire reproductive system. She's asked me, and a lot of other people, to pray. But the thing is, I don't really have the faith to pray. You and I both know that you could heal her, but you're the only one who knows if you will heal her. And unfortunately my experience of late tells me that though you could, and though you may even want to, you probably won't, and so I don't really feel like praying for her just to be disappointed. I'm sure this is the wrong attitude, but I'm also sure that you'll give grace and bring me around to the right one all in good time. So for tonight, here is my prayer: Lord, I believe, help my unbelief, and save Wendy from the pain of a hysterectomy and from any future need for cancer treatment, and please do it despite the fact that I don't really think you will. Amen.